Desssuuhhhh;)

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You have to get hurt. That’s how you learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. Because they’ve decided that they’re not going to let anything hold them down, they’re showing the world whos the boss.

Source: yanilavigne

Moments I live for! :)

Sooo, I’m here listening to Pandora & I’m thinking about little moments that have made me happy && it’s like I have a lot of those! Cherishing the ones you have with people you just met a year ago, and the one’s from friends & family that have been ur life for countless days! My GREAT friend is graduating from college tomorrow, and I can’t help but to feel blessed to have had him in my life…. but then again I’m sad knowing i’ll be finishing school while he’s already making his moves! Man, I hate growing up, dealing with having to say goodbye, see ya later, or just having to go through anything we’re not ready for! I just wish I was a little kid, all this stuff I have to go through is unbearable, but then again I wouldn’t have met half the people I have, but I’m glad to say most of them have changed my life in so many ways! :)

Sick of this feeling, :/

Boys scare me. You guys are so good at lying and leading us on, and somehow it doesn’t even phase you. You get what you want, and say whatever needs to be said in order to get what you want. You never realize how many feelings we can develop so quickly for you. The problem with girls is, they find it so hard to leave and the problem with boys is, they find it so hard to stay. I don’t trust boys, and somehow I still let myself fall into the trap. Those puppy eyes he uses on me and the sweet words he so rarely says. Once I get a slight taste of how well he could treat me and much he could care for me, I latch onto it for dear life. He’s a good guy, everyone one who knows him has told me. He’s a good guy I tell myself when I’m with him. And subconsciously I believe this, because I do know he is a good guy. A good guy. What does that mean? I think it’s different for every boy you meet. This boy, is a good guy in the way that he couldn’t hurt a fly, intentionally. I sincerely believe that too. This guy would never do anything to intentionally cause me emotional distress. He also doesn’t realize what he is doing half the time, which leads to me being hurt without him knowing. This applies for almost every boy out there though, they really have no clue what they’re doing. Yes, there are the douche-bags that are, well..douche-bags. But all douche-bags aside, the ones who are the ‘good guys’ have no clue that when they don’t text you for a few days it makes us feel unimportant, or if they see you in public and leave without saying goodbye, it feels like somebody just punched you in the stomach. Boys are oblivious to the most obvious things that sometimes it amazes me. I want him to show that he cares about me more than he has. I know he cares. He kisses me like I mean the world to him and he looks into eyes like he could never look away. He makes me nervous, which not many guys can do. I get butterflies when he enters a room and my stomach drops when he holds my hand. I feel like I am twelve again and am experiencing my first crush. I know I’m attached already and I hate it more than anyone can imagine. I am an independent, self sufficient girl. I don’t need a boy coming into my life and using the puppy eyes on me whenever he gets the chance. I don’t want to be sitting here typing about my mixed feelings for him, and waiting for him to text me already. It’s fun, yea… but it’s tiresome more than anything. I am so bad at this whole ‘love’ thing and it’s not because I hate loving it’s because I love far too much. I know I love so easily. It’s one of my best and worst traits. Not everyone deserves the love I give them and not everyone realizes how much I care for them. I have a rough exterior and build walls faster than you can read this sentence but those walls can be torn down even quicker. Don’t let me down, please don’t let me down, because no matter how many times I’ll deny it, just this once I will admit I’ve got true hope for you, even if you are a stupid boy.